meltdown 2

last night was the second melt down i had been two. the theme was redemption and so i wrote this poem called underserving and i tried to do it poetry slam style but i didnt have it completely memorized so i read part of it. it went really well.

life and death so closely aligned
i took my first breath by my savior designed
and i ran
i ran from my creator and made my stomach king
i followed it around consuming worldly things
a slave to sin i put lies within
running from God's blessing his name i cursed
of all the sinners i became the worst
slaughtering the prophets that He sent
in His mercy so i that i would repent
i continued to run to lie to steal and kill
my soul was dead to sin and sin ruled my will
yet even still, God tried to reach me
sending his own son down to teach me
He humbled himself became a man
and caught up to me as i ran
but i hated him for loving me
so i crucified him on a tree
as He hung i began to yell
if your the Son of God why dont you save yourself
but instead He ask His father to forgive
to forgive me even as i mudered him
to forgive all the wicked thing i did
so i wandered away confused and cried
as Jesus remained and willingly died
and i fell
with no strength left to run
weight down with guilt from what i'd done
completely hopeless all alone
powerless to even stand on my own
and then He came calling me by name
the ressurected Christ to bring me back to life
He took my shame my burden my guilt my chains
He took my cloths so full of stains
He brought me back to the fathers side
and through His death i'm justified
He broke sins power and set me free
now i live in the promise of eternity
He game me a new purpose to pursue
dont forget what He's done for you